I just turned 50, about 9 months ago a dear friend and staff member of my group at the office has lost his child at the age of 2 years old. I was with this person through out the whole deal from the start of the operations to the day she has past away. I did see this little girl body in the abmbulance and I knew she has passed away, her body in still positions no movements, nothing.
How did my crisis start I do not know, was it the death of a child that has made me think or re-thing my life, questioning all the problems I have been having or unresolved issues in my marriage and family. Questioning routines, and what I would like to change in my life. Was the sex routine to much every 3 months only. Why is it so much apart, is this normal the same person always making the same moves or initate the love relations all the time but left disappointed. At this point I do not know where to go or where to turn as it is very confusing for me and now is affecting my wife where she has also been questioning certain elements of our relationship which for me its good. Since this problem we have been making love like we have never done before the passion the love making, just blows our expectations, over 24 years of being together never has this been so great, but its not only the sex thing its more then that, I as a man am drain of making these efforts and have been for the last 5 years, not wanting to make these efforts any more. Yes I have thought of having an out side relationship to fill in the emptyness, but what will it do, will it improve I don't think so but who knows at this point.
Right now dealing it day by day trying to look for answers through documents like this one, and being hopefull in finding answers but down the end of this I know I will need and expert to help me out. This is my side of the story of course there is more to it then this but its a begining I would think. thank you for leaving this site open for comments.