wow anonomous you sound incredible i am going through a divorce. today was our first meeting with lawers. he has cheated on me twice that i know of and actually he is the one who said i dont love you and left. i just keep trying to make sense of it all . from forever to i hate you. how does it get there when i am such a faithful servent of the lord. i am not perfect but i gave our mariage everything i had. i prayed ademently every night for him and our marriage. but sometimes someone choses the wrong path and others pay. but what i have learned through this is that my faith is in the lord and no matter how it appears to me he is working it all out for his good. even though divorce does not look like his will i am still in his will and he will carry me. i know i am never more close to god than when i am without answers. i am out of answers. i love the song i will praise you in this storm. when i step back i can see that i am closer with my lord right now than ever and i thank him for that. he is the only one with unfailing love. thats my two cents. i would love to chat with you guys. this is a lonley emotional time and i have so many decisions to make. i spend too much time thinking and not enough time remembering he is god and in control