What you have wrote is so true. People do watch and they do see. I can see where I had my part in where the marriage went, but I don't think it was bad enough to just walk out on. Regardless, as I posted above I was as devistated as I could get. Christ will not bother with the prideful people, they have it all figured out; it's those that strip away their pride and literally get on their knees seeking His salvation that He gives so abundantly. I know - I've been there and felt that.
You'll know when He has entered your life because EVERYTHING changes. First, your old ways don't satisfy you anymore. Material things, wanting 'this and that' to "keep up with the Jones,'"...I mean honestly, the list is actually too long to post here. 2 Corinthians 5:17 says it best,"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new." And that is exactly where I am today...and still growing.
God Bless you all and keep growing in your faith as well.

-Jim