I really thank you for your comments they were very encouraging. I know that God is yet still in control. My 4 year old was walking through the house a couple of days ago singing a song that we often sing in church, "God is in Control of My Life". They are a blessing and my top priority is to ensure that they are trained up in the way that they should go. My little one consistently looks for his dad as well as my niece. When we leave the house and come home he asks if he's here as well as my niece looking for his car in the driveway. My parents separated when I was only 6 months old and all my life I wondered what it would have been like to come home to both parents. My mother loved my father and he her, but he too couldn't stop cheating. Ultimately he loved other women more than he loved his 5 girls. All of my sisters have had horrible relationship problems with men. My father passed away almost 4 years ago with many regrets of not being with us. Although he loved us, he had lots of problems dealing with my mom who I'm very similar to at the same point in her life. We missed out on a lot of things because my mother chose to leave my father and sometimes we ask her why didn't she have enough faith to believe that he would change. I truly love my husband but I don't know if he wants to change.