I'm with Wesley on this. Even though he has, perhaps, canceled his trip, you can only guess why, or whether it's been rescheduled.

As CLARIFY? pointed out, this is about you and the kind of person you want to be. You're in your second year of marraige. As you know, your marraige isn't going to get any easier than it is right now! It's work! If he's not committed now, when will he be?

There is nothing excusable about going to prostitutes. Would your husband feel so sanguine about you renting a man to satisfy your desires while he was gone?? Would he jump to the conclusion that you were just acting on sexual fantasies that you were too shy to share with him? Good lord, everyone has sexual fantasies! What separates the trustworthy people from the liars is that they don't act on fantasies that take them outside of their marraige. If your perfect and understanding husband saw a letter from you to some gigolo, explaining your desire to be abused while he had sex with you, would his "pride" get in the way of his confronting you on this? I seriously doubt it. If his "pride" would get in the way of working this out then he is not committed and this is not a marraige. Sorry.

Don't stay in a marraige in which you are, once again, the victim. How long will it be before he acts on his cravings and, once he does, do you really think it will stop? You're still young. You can rely on yourself. You don't need his acreage. Get a job and get some self respect!

And as for the "therapy" you received above, I totally disagree. While it certainly supports your husband and his supposed needs, it does nothing to protect you and your needs (other than your need to stick your head in the sand and avoid reality.) Give me a break. A good therapist will help you find the strength to do the right thing for yourself!

Take care of YOURSELF. Good luck.