Í am sitting her at the computer when I should be in bed. I have just read your comments and it sort of makes me feel better. My husband of 23 years abandoned me when my son (the youngest of two) left for university to go and live with a Chinese girl. He left me in Taiwan and I had to pack up the family home and return to UK after 20 years of living abroad. He has left me with nothing and has no contact with me or his two wonderful children. As far as we know, he is living with a young Chinese girl who seems to have deprived him of his senses and his money. He was a good husband and father and with the normal ups and downs, we had a good marriage. We were both Christians. What happened? I can't imagine that he is happy but none of us are able to reach him. He is living his fantasy life and yet he has destroyed ours. I am not able to move on and not strong enough to deal with fighting the divorce, working again, sorting out all the family stuff and living!!! I miss him, I want him to repent and say he is sorry and to be able to work it through. My good friends think I am crazy. Sometimes I think I am too. But I really feel sorry for him and wish he could come to his senses. I am told he never will. Sometimes I wish he had died - it would have been easier for all of us - it would have left our memories intact. Now I no longer know who he was or is!!! How sad!