Thank you all for sharing, mostly about putting God first. I too have put my husband first (before God), at least I think so. I don't think he would agree. I'm not sure what to do at this point. Hubby is 46 and says he has not been happy for the past 6 months or longer. A saddness hits him every Saturday night that he doesn't understand. He's tired of me putting all the blame on him for the bills being a mess, etc...I don't spend extra, I rarely ever go shopping, maybe xmas with gift certificates from in-laws. I have home schooled my kids all of these years and quit my full time job to do it. Now my last one is graduating in June and I'm looking for a job. I'm 52 and just feel so beside myself looking for a full time job. We live in an isolated area and I will have to drive a distance to any job (in my suv). My husband says he thinks he wants a divorce. He's acting so weird. I don't think he's having an affair, but not sure he isn't thinking about it. He isn't walking with the Lord. It's all so crazy and I never thought my husband would leave me, I felt secure with him and now I don't. I'm trying to put God first. I was trying to do things to please my husband, like extra sex, great dinners, serving him more, etc...but I started getting resentful. The books I read says someone has to humble themselves and make the first move,etc...Hope I'm making sense. I sure would like to talk to the lady who started this post and see how things are going. God bless and thanks for listening. Connie from California